As a guy, it can be very difficult to admit there is an issue that you are having that requires outside help. You should be able to handle it yourself, bounce it off a friend, "walk it off", or something to get yourself right. But I've been seeing a therapist for years, and was fortunate (on advice from a girlfriend at the time, many years ago) to take advantage of free sessions through the UC system in CA, and I can't recommend it enough.
Since I'm a big sports guy, and played for years, the context that works best for me is a coaching relationship. Any coach I've ever had is out there to help me be my best self...on the field, on the floor, in training, etc. So, I took in that coach mindset into my own sessions...my therapist is there to help me see my own blind spots, so I can be my best self (whatever that is at the time). Having that context, my therapist as a coach, really eased any concerns I had about going into therapy.
So now I see my coach in the locker room (our sessions) then go back out into the field of life. It works really well for me. Sam, I appreciate you putting this out there. I don't share this with most people, but the more we do, the less of a stigma there is. Thank you for your courage.
Thank you for writing this, Samantha. It feels really reaffirming to hear someone’s success with therapy. I’ve been seeing a therapist for over a year now and definitely put off journaling as well. It’s one of those things where once you start doing it, and keep doing it each day or so, it becomes easier.
I also have the problem of not telling people I’m close to that I’m in therapy. I’ve really only told friends who have had their own mental health related experiences. Someone who really GETS it. Maybe talking about it more openly breaks the stigma, maybe I want certain parts of my life to remain within that close circle.
Well, I’ve just told all of you so who’s to say. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Thank you for sharing this. I've had several therapists over the years and you're totally right that finding a good fit is necessary. They help, which is why your point about Medicare for All so that everyone can see one is so important, as is decreasing mental health stigma--which writng like this does.
It was difficult for me to start going to therapy, to help to overcome codependence and intimacy issues. Thanks to a major knee injury, my high deductible health insurance was maxed and I was able to essentially interview several therapists until I found one that I gelled with.
I feel that I've grown significantly from therapy and hope that work like yours will help to dispel stigmas around mental health.
How much of this stigma do you think is generational? My parents haven't been forthcoming with their opinions about going to therapy but aren't outwardly hostile. My own peers (I'm 30) say things like "everyone can benefit from therapy" and "mental health is equally important" etc. Perhaps I've cultivated a bubble of empathetic people?
I always said the right things about therapy but inwardly thought "that's for those broken people, not for me." That was until 2 1/2 years ago, when I was going through some shit that me to some pretty dark places. Fortunately, I got over myself and found a good therapist. I'm not in therapy on the regular now - mine was more of an acute "get out of that situation" type thing - but I've ditched those very stupid thoughts I had about therapy and anti-depressants.
Extremely relatable article Samantha. The parts about insurance and the need for Medicare for All are spot on. Thank you for writing this, I hope everyone can get the help they need
Wonderful piece Samantha and unfortunately relatable. I have a question, if you don't mind? If you do, please feel free to ignore me. When you first went, did you open up completely? I went to a few sessions and ended up sugarcoating everything I was feeling and doing. It felt pointless for me to keep going when I wasn't being honest.
I've been going to therapy for... seven years? It doesn't feel that long! At first, I didn't tell anyone I went. Mostly because of an ongoing fear of failure and not wanting to broadcast attempts in case I don't accomplish what I want. You know, that old thing. Once I got comfortable with it, I did my best to broadcast it as much as possible. I genuinely don't think there's anything bad about it (as well as usually enjoying it a great deal) so I want to pay heed to that belief. It can feel awkward at times, but if part of thinks being a little awkward about it now might make it easier for other people? Or encourage other people to try? Eh, I don't know, but it's how it feels.
With my mom, I've often had to deal with a lot of "do you think it's working?" as if I'm just loosening a jar lid. That can be hard to deal with because... well, I wonder it, too! Even if I know it's not that simple, there are always times when I know I'm not meeting my goals or feel like I've lost my way and outside inquiries can make it that much harder to stay focused.
Nice job, I can tell just from reading this you've progressed, without even knowing you. My first therapy session was 25 years ago and my most recent was this past Saturday. I've had probably 4-5 therapists in between there and have been with my current about 2 years. It's generally an atrocious, time consuming, and overly complicated process to find any kind of mental health professional in this country. I've gotten referrals for therapists plenty of times only to find out they won't bill to insurance companies because it's not worth the effort. Different insurance companies also pay therapists differently which usually ends up with therapists only taking insurance that can help them pay their bills. I asked my therapist once about it and he said he felt terrible but he had to drop certain insurances because they only paid half as much as others. Half!
Enjoyed the post! There is so much more I could probably say on this topic, haha.
S/O for this, Samantha. I’m more in the proselytizing mode when it comes to therapy, but I get what you’re saying about the shame you can feel. For those of us un- or underemployed: check into what resources you have locally via Medicare. My therapist, who’s been a huge help, takes MC. It’s been a literal life saver over the past year.
Saying Goodbye to My Therapy Fears
As a guy, it can be very difficult to admit there is an issue that you are having that requires outside help. You should be able to handle it yourself, bounce it off a friend, "walk it off", or something to get yourself right. But I've been seeing a therapist for years, and was fortunate (on advice from a girlfriend at the time, many years ago) to take advantage of free sessions through the UC system in CA, and I can't recommend it enough.
Since I'm a big sports guy, and played for years, the context that works best for me is a coaching relationship. Any coach I've ever had is out there to help me be my best self...on the field, on the floor, in training, etc. So, I took in that coach mindset into my own sessions...my therapist is there to help me see my own blind spots, so I can be my best self (whatever that is at the time). Having that context, my therapist as a coach, really eased any concerns I had about going into therapy.
So now I see my coach in the locker room (our sessions) then go back out into the field of life. It works really well for me. Sam, I appreciate you putting this out there. I don't share this with most people, but the more we do, the less of a stigma there is. Thank you for your courage.
Thank you for writing this, Samantha. It feels really reaffirming to hear someone’s success with therapy. I’ve been seeing a therapist for over a year now and definitely put off journaling as well. It’s one of those things where once you start doing it, and keep doing it each day or so, it becomes easier.
I also have the problem of not telling people I’m close to that I’m in therapy. I’ve really only told friends who have had their own mental health related experiences. Someone who really GETS it. Maybe talking about it more openly breaks the stigma, maybe I want certain parts of my life to remain within that close circle.
Well, I’ve just told all of you so who’s to say. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Thank you for sharing this. I've had several therapists over the years and you're totally right that finding a good fit is necessary. They help, which is why your point about Medicare for All so that everyone can see one is so important, as is decreasing mental health stigma--which writng like this does.
Thank you for sharing this, Samantha.
It was difficult for me to start going to therapy, to help to overcome codependence and intimacy issues. Thanks to a major knee injury, my high deductible health insurance was maxed and I was able to essentially interview several therapists until I found one that I gelled with.
I feel that I've grown significantly from therapy and hope that work like yours will help to dispel stigmas around mental health.
How much of this stigma do you think is generational? My parents haven't been forthcoming with their opinions about going to therapy but aren't outwardly hostile. My own peers (I'm 30) say things like "everyone can benefit from therapy" and "mental health is equally important" etc. Perhaps I've cultivated a bubble of empathetic people?
Thank you again for your vulnerability.
I always said the right things about therapy but inwardly thought "that's for those broken people, not for me." That was until 2 1/2 years ago, when I was going through some shit that me to some pretty dark places. Fortunately, I got over myself and found a good therapist. I'm not in therapy on the regular now - mine was more of an acute "get out of that situation" type thing - but I've ditched those very stupid thoughts I had about therapy and anti-depressants.
Good on you for getting the help you needed.
Extremely relatable article Samantha. The parts about insurance and the need for Medicare for All are spot on. Thank you for writing this, I hope everyone can get the help they need
Wonderful piece Samantha and unfortunately relatable. I have a question, if you don't mind? If you do, please feel free to ignore me. When you first went, did you open up completely? I went to a few sessions and ended up sugarcoating everything I was feeling and doing. It felt pointless for me to keep going when I wasn't being honest.
I've been going to therapy for... seven years? It doesn't feel that long! At first, I didn't tell anyone I went. Mostly because of an ongoing fear of failure and not wanting to broadcast attempts in case I don't accomplish what I want. You know, that old thing. Once I got comfortable with it, I did my best to broadcast it as much as possible. I genuinely don't think there's anything bad about it (as well as usually enjoying it a great deal) so I want to pay heed to that belief. It can feel awkward at times, but if part of thinks being a little awkward about it now might make it easier for other people? Or encourage other people to try? Eh, I don't know, but it's how it feels.
With my mom, I've often had to deal with a lot of "do you think it's working?" as if I'm just loosening a jar lid. That can be hard to deal with because... well, I wonder it, too! Even if I know it's not that simple, there are always times when I know I'm not meeting my goals or feel like I've lost my way and outside inquiries can make it that much harder to stay focused.
I really liked this. Thanks for writing it!
Nice job, I can tell just from reading this you've progressed, without even knowing you. My first therapy session was 25 years ago and my most recent was this past Saturday. I've had probably 4-5 therapists in between there and have been with my current about 2 years. It's generally an atrocious, time consuming, and overly complicated process to find any kind of mental health professional in this country. I've gotten referrals for therapists plenty of times only to find out they won't bill to insurance companies because it's not worth the effort. Different insurance companies also pay therapists differently which usually ends up with therapists only taking insurance that can help them pay their bills. I asked my therapist once about it and he said he felt terrible but he had to drop certain insurances because they only paid half as much as others. Half!
Enjoyed the post! There is so much more I could probably say on this topic, haha.
S/O for this, Samantha. I’m more in the proselytizing mode when it comes to therapy, but I get what you’re saying about the shame you can feel. For those of us un- or underemployed: check into what resources you have locally via Medicare. My therapist, who’s been a huge help, takes MC. It’s been a literal life saver over the past year.